shame on you.....shame on me

so I was watching mtv tonight and they showed this commercial. mentioning some bands I kind of like and would consider part of my total elitest assholeness. I won't lie,I like music no body for the most part has heard. i'm a jerk about it and thats fine. and no the radio isn't good,nor is country. i'm sorry,i'm an asshole. anyway,they show these guys talking about british bands while sitting at a picnic table. while some guy sitting next to tree corrects them all on where the actual bands are from and something equaly assholeish. and yes my friends,I do that.
on a sader note,watched some true life. watched a whole thing about living at home still. it was like somebody came to my house and wrote observations. my mom can be the nicest,sweetest person,but turn around and treat me like shit. earlier I was taking clothes out of the dryer. I had put a basket in front of it,a basket stacked. well the door barely brushed it and i was going to move the basket. she then tells me not to do that and how she can't afford another dryer. WHAT THE MOTHER FUCKING HELL. it was a big deal. she is forever telling me what i am doing wrong or how I did it wrong. I mean seriously,am I that irresponsible. i just paid off my loans. i have been cleaning,taking care of things. i take her bills and pay them for her because she works so much. i do so much it seems,yet I am a bad person at fault. granted I am not working,yes I know this. this is my fault but my god.
when did my life and my situation become so lonely.
sometimes i wonder if I am just afraid of her.
this just makes me very sad,thats all. sad that i don't have the same relationship I use to with my mom.
because she use to be my bestfriend.

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Julianna but everyone calls me Julie. I live in southern illinois. I'm 24. I do hair aka cosmetologist and watch a lot of re-runs.music is my life and it makes me happy. my friends are my family.I'm full of useless information. i'm extremely opinionated,blunt,and honest. small talk is stupid and I have no use for it.I'm a big girl,always have been and I like who I am. if you have a problem with "fat people" you can go fuck yourself and bite my ass. however,I am a nice person for the most part and I just have no time for stupidity. sarcasm is my middle name. we only live once so don't take life so seriously.

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