these are the songs that we sing

so last night I hung out with jami because she had a bad day. so we rented movies,ate cake and other things I never eat really.
amityville horror was a good remake and pretty true to the first one. only ya know,ryan reynolds was HUGE and muscular. however,the story was awesome.

kicking and screaming:i give a c+ only because there were funny parts. plus,mike ditka is hilarious unintentionally.

the sisterhood of the traveling pants:awesome. theres this whole scene and story with the hispanic girl. her dad leaves and they show her years later going to visit him. she shows up and the dad has this whole new family and hes getting married. her father,fails to tell her and pretty much has made this whole new life.
when she gets pissed,leaves,and finally says what she thinks and feels,its this emotional mess.
because you can be 17 or 25 or 40 and it still sucks. when your parent gives up the life they had with you for some one else,it still hurts.
i try not to dwell on it,but it was so hard not to cry while watching it.i've had that conversation before where you don't understand what happened. you don't understand why suddenly you've become this thing and situation instead of a person or daughter.
you feel hurt,betrayed,like some one took away some thing you believed in. some thing you believed to be true,and its not.
my dad hasn't seen my brother in a year and half. do you think hes tried.do you think hes taken time out of his life for my brother,no. and yes we're adults and yes i know we should just get over it and that souds so simple. but whats simple is just ignoring it all. just saying to yourself "you'll never be what you were every suppose to be". and i want to have a dad who tells me i'm beautiful,and wonderful,and remind me that a man will love me one day. that will be there when it all falls a part some times,because I don't.
i won't lie,i have a lot of issues with trusting males and even conversations about it.

i'm sure there are worse things,like death. however,in many ways,it does feel like death.it feels like a part of my life died,and you can't regain that feeling with the same person ever again.

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Julianna but everyone calls me Julie. I live in southern illinois. I'm 24. I do hair aka cosmetologist and watch a lot of re-runs.music is my life and it makes me happy. my friends are my family.I'm full of useless information. i'm extremely opinionated,blunt,and honest. small talk is stupid and I have no use for it.I'm a big girl,always have been and I like who I am. if you have a problem with "fat people" you can go fuck yourself and bite my ass. however,I am a nice person for the most part and I just have no time for stupidity. sarcasm is my middle name. we only live once so don't take life so seriously.

golden girls,hello kitty,going to shows,st.louis,houston,piercings,mad tv,dane cook,my momma,my brotha,get togethers,target,christmas,my birthday,halloween,the state,reno 911,warm vanilla sugar,bottled water,singing,uncle buck,goonies,seinfeld,etc.

smoking,drugs,stupid people,eggs mixed with other foods(like omlettes),the word"yuns",jackasses,smelly people,dirty finger nails,the radio,country music,most of tv,etc.

low,rilo kiley,they might be giants,sufjan stevens,pedro the lion,motion city soundtrack,damien rice,lou barlow,jimmy eat world,mobius band,ted leo and RX,ben folds,ratatat,iron and wine,that dog,the urge,spoon,death cab for cutie,etc.

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